TWO IMPORTANT QUESTIONS;
In my own journey of healing and growth, I’ve come to realize that progress often begins with two crucial questions. These questions have been instrumental in my own growth, and I believe they can be for others as well. The first question is: What is your escape? The second, equally important question is: Who do you take it out on?
Growing up as an only child in a non-traditional family setting, I was exposed to situations and people that unintentionally inflicted trauma on my life. Although they didn’t intend to cause harm, the unconventional family dynamics left me vulnerable and more susceptible to emotional pain. I don’t place blame on those involved, but rather acknowledge the difficulties that arose from that environment.
School provided a sense of structure and discipline in my life, but it wasn’t enough to fill the void. Given my history of trauma, it was almost inevitable that I would seek an escape. During my school years, my escape manifested as rebellion and indiscipline – a way to cope with the emotional pain and discomfort that I didn’t know how to process.
In Senior 4 (equivalent to Grade 10), I was expelled from King’s College Budo for refusing to accept a punishment. The reason for the punishment was being outside school premises, but ironically, many students were outside, as we were allowed to go for runs in preparation for Sports Day. What really fueled my defiance, however, was the feeling of never belonging for I was always sent home for defaulting on school fees.
I turned to rebellion as my escape.
After failing Senior 6 (equivalent to Grade 12), I took a break from academics. ...
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